Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Is it possible?

One of the things Non-Goreans complain about Gor is, that it is so Gorean. Many of my friends and family would be interested in the RP, but are scared from all the rules and stuff. And many of my friends and family are neko or centaurs or fairies (*heh*) or whatever.

These days we are thinking about another world. A kind of Gor-Narnia-Middle-Earth-hybrid world. With Gorean Weapons and Gor-Meter and RP, but not strictly according to the books of John Norman. Giving other creatures like nekos, fairies, centaurs, werewolves, furries etc. the possibility to play too.

At the first moment it sounds ridiculuous, but the longer we think about it, the more it becomes practicable. I mean... there are no gay cities in the books and yet they exist in SL-Gor. And you don't raise from the dead in the books and yet you do in SL-Gor. So, WHY NOT a different world with more fantasy creatures?

It wouldn't be so difficult to build a SIM for it. It would be a bigger problem to make some rules for fighting ("Are elfs and wizzards allowed to use magical powers?" and stuff like that), but not impossible. The biggest problem would be to find opponents to fight against and have RP with them as I'm pretty sure, that the "real" Goreans (pffffft) refuse to fight against a bunch of mythical creatures.

Although... the thought of 30 nekos and centaurs raiding their Gorean cities, scratching and biting and then purring and licking their warriors... that's tempting! SL is made for fulfilling fantasies. You can do almost everything you want to do. So is it possible? Hm, why shouldn't it?

new boy

Was pretty busy these days after the wedding, so no time for writing. But not too busy to collar a new boy yesterday: Tesakam.

After my little devil Mick I now have a little angel also. He's soooo sweet! Love him very much!!!

Collaring was in a mystical cove-chappel on earth. Beautiful there! Will have to take a closer look at it soon..

"Kneel down in front of me, my angel!"
"Yes, my Master"
Franziskus Ninetails slides his hands over the boys naked neck, softly carressing the bare skin and smiles. He takes a deep breath and starts talking, while he takes a collar from his belt "My angel, you are sure, strong and proud..." He holds the collar with the boy's name 'Tesakam' and his Master's name 'Franziskus Ninetails' in front of the kajirus' face, so he can read the ingravings "I ask you, my angel, will you submit to me and be my slaveboy by your free will?"
The boy responds proudly with a clear voice: "Yes, I submit to you by my free will for now and forever."
Franziskus Ninetails smiles and nods, opens the collar and wraps it around the boy's neck "You do not submit as acceptance of inferiority, but from strength and passion. You desire and flourish in the strength and control of a man." - He closes the collar and reaches for the small key at his belt. He puts the key in the lock "In return you present control of your body, unqualified trust and honesty and the faithfulness of your heart" - The Master turns the key once.
Tesakam Riler: "Yes, I do. I submit totally to you Master!" - Feeling the cold metal on his neck, but still smiles happy.
Franziskus Ninetails continues "You submit because I have earned your trust. Because I have opened my heart and soul to you. Because I have listened to your words with my ears and heart, and I have learned to anticipate your needs and emotions." - He turns the key a second time and the boy hears the click of the key locking the collar on his neck.
Franziskus Ninetails smiles and takes another deep breath before he ends: "And because I have proven worthy in your eyes, you have given me the only true treasure of life. You have given me dominance over you." - He the key a third time, takes it out the lock and adjusts it at his belt. Taking the boy by his shoulders he pulls him up into his arms "From now on you are mine and I am your Master! I love you, my boy!"
Tesakam Riler with emotion in his voice: "Thank you, my Master. I love you!"
Franziskus Ninetails holds his new boy tight, whispering in his ears "I love you so much!"

Monday, May 18, 2009

Finally: The Wedding

I was about to post a lot of pictures which my friends and family shot for me, cause I was too busy and laggy and exited and nervous to take pictures by myself. But then - half an hour ago - I found a present from my brother Spanki. And I started to cry out of happiness again. This is such a wonderful gift. Thank you, my brother!!! So, here it is: Our wedding!

[I recommend to chose HQ and full screen]

The ceremony started with the traditional Gorean vows of Free Companions. Then the initiate Jordyn Carnell held a short speech, followed by our personal vows. You can read the whole ceremony on JC's Blog. Thank you, initiated cowboy for the ceremony.

After the ceremony we went down to the dance-pavillon, that Nevie built for us, to do our first dance together. It was so romantic and wonderful.

I tried to make a guest-list, but at some point I had to switch off my radar, as I was too laggy and nervous:

. Jordyn Carnell (reverend)
. Dafydd Sodwin (DJ)
. Mickael Pevensey
. Brian Warcliffe
. Bac Compton
. Sabine Bolissima
. Ades Kanto
. Neville Braveheart
. Cindy Rang
. Wulfric Draconia
. Kyne Tigerpaw
. JoJo Mandel
. Spanki Moulliez
. Heloq Tomsen
. Eileanor Braveheart
. Rio Paulino
. Ralf Argus
. Spinaker Avro
. Master Deakins
. Mike Maximov
. Rammy Urriah
. Tigger Tomorrow
. DeliciousDemon Chemistry
. Mathieu Ansar
. Vernidi Avro
. Justyn Maurer
. Conner Revnik

... and maybe some more which I couldn't recognize.

I was so happy to celebrate this day together with my now husband, my brothers, my family and my friends. Thank you all! You made this a very special day for us.

The 72 hours

These days I'm build very close to water. I don't know, if you say that in English!? In German someone has "build close to water", when he or she cries a lot. But these are happy tears and I don't wanna miss a single one of it!

But the last days really were exhausting. I started to panic at wednesday, when I recognized, that the Isle of Silver Tree can only handle 20 visitors. I asked Bac Compton aka "The Dark Lord" and Sabine Bollisima, his companion, if we could use their SIM "The Dark Path" for the wedding and they kindly agreed. So far, so good...

Thursday I had a day with Brian and tried to not think about the upcoming wedding. And friday the mess started... I couldn't reach Bac or Sab. The SIM was down, emptied and only accessable for group-members of the Dark Path; which would have been bad, as I should have had my wedding without my groomie and without 90% of the guests then... I had neither heard from the reverend JC, nor from our DJ Daffy. We bought a sky-platform for the wedding which only arrived to one third from XStreet; no success with contacting the seller. And I really, really, really started to get devastated and was about to cancel the whole thing.

But then, friday night, just returned from work... There they were! Sab, JC, Daffy and Nevie! And things started to work out pretty fine. Nevie offered to build the dance-pavillon and it became wonderful. I cared for the wedding-pavillon, the stairway up to it and the gardening around it.

Saturday I had to work RL almost the whole day. Came home exhausted, but couldn't sleep. So I joined Nevie with the building for some hours before finally joining my love Kenshi in bed.

And then there it was: Sunday! Sending out invitations with the new location. Working here, working there. So busy. So nervous. So exited. So fainting all the time....

But... at the end it was purrrrrrrrrrrfect!

A special thank you to Jordyn Carnell, Dafydd Sodwin, Bac Compton, Sabine Bolissima, Neville Braveheart, Master Deakins, Rio Paulino, Azah Kumaki and Andrej Petlyakov for your help and support! *kissssssssssss*

a day with Brian

Brian - Mick's RL-boyfriend and SL-partner.... so, a new lil bro for me and my future second boy... He's so sweet and cute and nice and fits purrfectly in our happy family.

The conversation needs a while, cause he only speaks French and my French stops after "Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir" from the old Labelle-song (yes, it's NOT from "Moulin Rouge")... but we had fun anyways. Spend the whole thursday together, I showed him some places... and we ended at Mendance/JustBe. That was so cool cause actually we wanted to dance at Premier to Gregster Kidd's tunes, but Premier was closed for renovation. I contacted the GregMeister and he offered to open and play JustBe for an hour extra for us. Wulfie joined us too and we all had fun...

And of course a big welcome to the family, Brian!

My lil bro, the artist

Every Gorean Free needs a seal. Especially as high official like a Magistrate. I waited long for mine, but it was worth waiting for!

My little bro and kajirus Mick worked on mine and I got it right for the wedding of Kenshi and me. And what should I say? It's awwwwwwwwwesome!!!! So cool! I'm so proud of my seal and of my lil devil! I think from now on I'm going to sign every notice with it, no matter if Gorean or not! *heh*

For all non-Goreans: The colors red & blue are a Magistrate's color (red = warrior caste, blue = scribe caste). The yellow is for my building skills... It was also orginially red, golden & black, which are the flag-colors of Germany AND Belgium (where my love and my lil devil come from).

Dancing in Heaven

We did it!

And it was wonderful!

Thanks to all my brothers, my family and my friends who helped and supported us!

More to come soon, but I'm a bit exhausted after all the preparations....

Thursday, May 14, 2009


On sunday, 17th of May at 12.00 pm will be Kenshi and mine official wedding. - Have been partnered and engaged several times, but this time I'm sure, that we are made for each other. So I wanted a real wedding-ceremony.

However, yesterday I recognized: Silver Tree, the location for the wedding, can only be joined by 20 AVs at once. And what was big nervousness before now changed into PANIC!!!! Well, if not more then 20 friends come, then no problem, but I hope, there will be some more. We're looking for a fallback an I already have something in mind, but didn't meet the SIM-owner yet. *oooomph*

Did I mention, that I panic???????

Monday, May 11, 2009


Last wednesday I visited with my lil devlish bro a place, where I spent the first weeks of my SLife: GuySpanking.

Here to the left you see a very, very old picture of me spanking my bro Rammy those days way, way back. Seems like many years to me, but actually it's just 14 months ago. Well, one year in SL is like half of a lifetime in RL...

Somehow I miss those old days. Sure, had not much to wear, no AO, bad skin and bad hair, no idea of building and editing stuff, no idea of emoting... But it was relaxed. No surrows, no rent to pay, no messy inventory, nothing to furnish... Just playing and enjoying.

The place changed also a lot. It was a nice house in the hills before, now it is a sky-platform. There's only a classroom and a gymroom left. But we had a lot of fun giving him a detention. My other lil bro, Kyne, and two strangers joined us and it became even more fun.

However, we will return soon again and play a bit more. I hope my bro Rammy will be able to join us...

(Too bad, that I forgot to change my graphics... The pictures would have been soooo.. uhm... nice. Well, they are nice, but could have been even nicer. *purrrrrr*)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Saturday, May 9, 2009

just so... blogfiller

Heard the song "Hope there's someone" at "Torchwood".
Antony Hegarty.
English-Irish singer & songwriter.

He's.. uhm... not exactly handsome, but I love his voice!

Dedicated to... whoever feels addressed

Hope there’s someone who’ll take care of me
when I die, will I go?

Hope there’s someone who’ll set my heart free.
Nice to hold, when I’m tired.

There’s a ghost on the horizon
When I go to bed, how can I fall asleep at night?
How will I rest my head?

Oh, I’m scared of the middle place between light and nowhere.
I don’t want to be the one, left in there.
Left in there.

There’s a man on the horizon.
Wish that I’d go to bed.
If I fall to his feet tonight, will allow, rest my head.

So here’s hoping I will not drown or paralyze in light.
And godsend I don’t want to go, to the seal’s watershed.

Hope there’s someone who’ll take care of me
when I die, will I go?

Hope there’s someone who’ll set my heart free.
Nice to hold, when I’m tired.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009


So, apart from the annoying stuff in Gor - what else is new?

Kenshi is back for over a week now and we spent most of the time together; going to bed together, waking up together, spending the day together. It's wonderful, but doesn't leave me much time for things I would have to do.

My inventory is growing and growing.... over 18.000 items now. Scares me!

The construction work and gardening at our earth-home stands still.

And now we rented a house at ST also, which has to be furnished pretty soon.

And I'm taking my duty as Magistrate of Silver Tree serious, even started a blog for it, which takes some time also.

Our official wedding will be at the 17th of May. And I don't have time for preparations. *sigh*

Missing my lil brother Mick and some of my other brothers, which aren't online much because of RL-stuff.

But most of all I spend much time with my beloved, which makes me happy. Not taking too many pictures though... and if, then they are not proper for puplic, even if this is an adult-blog. *heh* That's why I just chosen the tiger-hug picture.

Well, I guess that's most of it summarized...


These days Kenshi and me spent some time on Gor. Rented a house there in Silver Tree (and still waiting for it to get ready, so that we could finally move in, but the landlords are too busy getting captured all the time, so we wonder what for we are paying rent at all...). I'm always looking forward to go there, but most of the times after a few minutes we're both upset and disappointed. Yeah, I know... Tiger is having some temper and getting upset easily (there's a reason, why Kenshi and me are "Tiger & Dragon". Yin & Yang. Temper & Patience.), but also my dragon gets angry a lot of times. Almost every night we returned to our earth-home upset and disappointed. So I thought it's time to write some things about Gor in Second Life.

So, first of all: I can't hear it anymore this "This is Gor! Deal with it!". Gor does not really exist. It's based on the books of John Norman, a philosophy professor and bad writer. The idea of "counterearth" - a planet that is on the opposite side of the sun, so it never could be seen from earth - isn't his. It was a theory of Pythagoras about 600 years B.C. (And you can be sure, that Norman as philosophy teacher knows about that theory).
Norman's books were (are?) influenced by the spirit of the age ("Zeitgeist") and often an offence against it. He started to write them in the middle of the 60s. A time where women's liberation started. The old chauvinist glorified a world, where men rule and women have the only desire to submit to them, even Free Women aren't worth much and always on the edge of becoming kajirae - slaves -, either forced to or by free will (or just abducted from Earth because of their inner desire to submit.). So, most of it is wishful thinking of the author.
It was also the time of Vietnam. While american soldiers fought in a mean and evil and not at all glorious war (well, how can a war be "glorious" anyways?) and the flower power movement preached love & peace, Norman glorified the image of the honorable splendid warrior.
Anyways. No, "this" is not Gor. This is the 21st century. This is a pixel-world. This is Second Life. This is a Roleplay. And in my (and Kenshi's) humble opinion it's pretty bad RP with most players. At least with those who play Free. Kajiriae usually are the much better RPers. There's no wonder I prefer to talk and RP with excellent emoters and RPers like Misha Hellershanks and other kajiri... NOT because of sex, but just because they are the better actors.

So, here's some SL-Gor-points, that drive me nuts:

The attack-first-ask-later philosophy

Not a single day, you won't get attacked by some strangers without any reason or RP before. The other day Kenshi and me went as envoys for a trade to a SIM. Before we even could say "Tal" we were already attacked. Or yesterday about six people raided ST without any reason or point of sense. People I never seen before and prolly will never see again. And the only thing you can think is "WTF?!?" - If Gor for you is only fight and battle and capture, why don't you go and play World of Warcraft or Final Fantasy or whatever?

The lack of manners

Some players think to be "Gorean" means to show chilly manner or bold behaviour or no manners at all. - The other day Kenshi and me joined a group of about a dozen people - Free Men & Women and some kajiri -, we greeted with a friendly "Tal" and none, not a single one ever answered. Well, it happens that you're busy and maybe not recognize new arrivals, and the "Tal!" here and "Greetings!" there can be annoying too and thwart a chat/RP, but all 12???
Well, maybe they just don't like me/us and ignore us therefore? But it happens to others too. I recognize it all the time: New arrivals are ignored. Maybe it's an american thing? Europeans seem to stand to ceremony more then Americans. I often recognize a lack of manners with the Americans not only in Gor.
So, if I'm not even greeted back, how do you expect me to RP with you? I don't feel like interacting with you anymore. And yes, I'm arrogant/self-concious enough to tell you, that it's YOUR loss, not mine.

Another misconduct is the poofing right in the middle of a talk. One moment you are talking to a person, the next moment he just poofs with a "... attack at XY" or a "...have to go!" or nothing at all. That's just boorishness in general. And bad RP in particular.
The question is: How do you know, that there's an attack at XY or that a friend of yours is captured? Where's the dove that brought you the news? Why don't you run to the docks to catch a ship or at least jump on a tarn? - No, just poofing without a word is bad manners and bad RP.

The lack of a storyline

The SL-Gor could offer a large variety. There could be interesting, fascinating storylines and roleplays.
We started one as Mick and me became Dark Warriors after our death. It was a good RP with Bac Compton aka "The Dark Lord", who's an excellent RPer, emoter and actor. It was dark, passionate and romantic... or at least could have been. But we finally gave up on it under the pressure of others and because "our lord" couldn't be online enough as a result of RL-issues.
(However, "The book of Mammon" isn't finished - I just don't have the time to continue - but you may recognize reading it, how a RP with good players can be. )

Well, instead of planning storylines and follow a certain code of conduct, most of the times it's just pointless fight - capture - trade. What's with the relationship between the cities? Diplomatic negotiations? Official statements, public notice, announcements, bulletins, manifesto?

You never know who's friend or foe. At the beginning I thought, it's just me, because I'm new and don't know the who's who. But after almost five months of Gor I recognized: The others don't know either. One day you fight against the XY-outlaws, the next day they fight at your side against others and the day after that they raid your city. So you just think again "WTF?!?"

And many people don't keep their role. One moment they are merchants, the next moment thiefs and then you surprisingly meet them as kajirus/-a somewhere. Or they are killed and continue with their lives the other day as if nothing happened. Or they get captured and tortured and the next day they meet their capturers and torturers and hold small-talk with them as if nothing ever happened. Or... or... or... Where's the consequence and logic in all this? It often seems to me, that most people just play their role for the few hours they are online, and the next day it's all forgotten. New day, new RP. *sighs*

Endless OOC-discussions

Oh my! Sometimes I don't know, if I should laugh or cry or just scream. Okay, it happens to everyone - me too. Sometimes an OOC comment is just needed to clear the continue of the RP. But most of the times it's an endless discussion killing every fun for everyone. So, try to keep it to a minimum. I made some mistakes too (*heh* Bac can sing a song of that), but the longer I'm on Gor, the more I try to avoid OOC and try to RP it, if there are issues. Or go into OOC-mode to clear things as quick as possible so that all can return to the storyline.

Confusing Safe Zone with OOC

Safe Zones should be as small as possible. And SZ does not mean, that you are out of your role. They are meant as neutral zones for negotiations and trading, but most of the times they are (ab-)used for small-talk out of character. You're an outlaw? Well, then don't expect me to treat you like an honorable man, just because you are in a SZ! (Okay, one of Magistrate Franziskus' characteristics is, that he always tries to keep good manners, even if he's captured, tied up and naked with an arrow sticking in his bumm...)
On the other side, Combat Zone does not mean that you have to fight. Especially not with no reason and no introducing RP (see point #1!).

Slaves in Gor

Oh, this would be an article for itself. There's so much to write about kajiri and especially about the Free treating kajiri...

As mentioned before: I prefer RP with slaves, because most of them are the better RPers. They know how to emote. They learned. That's the big difference. A slave is supposed to learn, to read notecards, to visit slave-classes. They learn (or know) how to express themselves. And I often feel sorry for them, because often it's pearls thrown before swine. For instance: While a (good) slave knows the meaning of a good serve, 90% of the Masters don't have the slightest idea of it and think, it's just fun to get his paga or whatever as quick as possible.

So, it's not slaves that drive me nuts (except outlaw-slaves, which is in my eyes a contradiction at all; why should someone be an outlaw = following no rules at all, but a slave at the same time? Only force-collar would be acceptable, but then it wouldn't be a slave in the "Gorean way" = in devotion to it's Master and with the inner desire to submit to him, just a forced, resistant slave in the ancient way, who just submits under the pressure of the whip. Misha wrote a good article about this "special kind" of slaves), it's the way of the Free treating them.
There are different kind of (so-called) "Masters" who drive me nuts:

1. Those who ignore slaves most of the time and treat them as not-to-be-taken-serious RPers. - Maybe that's "Gorean", but for SL it's a big mistake! For the RP they are much more fun then the oh so "important" warriors. Try it and you will be surprised how much more entertaining it is then to speak to most of the Free.

2. Those who feed their pathetic RL-egos with humiliating slaves in SL. - What to say about those? - Some players even "invent" rules just to get a slave punished or humiliate it. The other day a dumbass complained, that my beloved boy didn't tell him the name of it's Master (actually he did after certain tries to RP around this). It's a Gorean rule, that a slave doesn't speak a Master's name. Bad thing is, that this complaining person was a slaver of a big city. He really should know better! --- Or another example: To use a slave greeting with "Tal" as reason to punish him. Ridiculuous! "Tal" is also used by slaves in the books, just without the hand-gesture. It just means "Greetings" in Gorean language. - Or the third-person-thing. There's no prove for it in the books. That it is mentioned here and there, doesn't mean, that it is a rule. It's more often mentioned, that slaves talked in first person without any consequences.
So, Masters who search for the slightest reason to complain and whine about a slave - don't bother me. I'll look in the other direction, if the boys and girls kick your ass verbally or literally!

3. Then there's the other extreme: Those who treat slaves like free. - Okay, we are all equal humans behind the screen, but IC don't act like it. I had a slaveboy (released now), who was just a pain in his ass. There was no devotion at all and his manners can be called "bad" in normal socializing, but inacceptable for a slaveboy. I could have dealt with it (if I would have had time and energy), so I don't complain about him; but the bad thing is: His behaviour was supported by other Free treating him like a Free who just casually was on his knees (if he was at all). Be aware: A slave is a slave is a slave.

4. The sadists. - Goreans are rough, but respectful and with a certain codex.... against other Free. But how about the handling of a slave? That he is on his knees, doesn't mean, that he is delighted to be the victim of your sadistic cravings! There are enough BDSM-subbies which match your desire, but don't assume, that every boy likes it.

5. The OOC/IC-confusers. - Often in consensus with #2. There might be some Gor-slaves, which made submission to their lifestyle, but most of them haven't. It's normal social behaviour to tell someone, when you have to go afk for a while or something, but don't expect a "slave" to ask for permission about RL-stuff. Treat the person behind the screen with the same respect you want to be treated with.


I mentioned it in an article before. - Using OOC information for RP, using tags for RP, using profiles for RP, using IMs for RP, changing the "history" to fit the RP..... --- No can do!
What didn't happen in RP officially didn't happen to me. Even if you are one of my best friends OOC - if I haven't met you yet IC, then I do not know you and do not know your name and you don't know me or my name!
Especially as "Mammon" I recognized a lot of that "cheating". Things like "I see in your eyes who you are!", when I'm all disguised with cloak and mask and my eyes switched from their natural color to glowing red??? No!!! IMs like "I'm captured at XY. Come and get me free!" - Nope! When you don't RP it, I don't know it IC and therefore I can't (or won't) act for it.
Maybe I'm too much of a hardliner, trained by some months in a SL-college, where everything was stritcly RP? Maybe it's silly and foolish, that Kenshi, Mick, Teso and me even RP informations, when noone is around and we know the information anyways from OOC-talk? But that's what RP means: PLAYING YOUR ROLE!


Well, I could continue a while with the things that bother me at SL-Gor. But I spend four hours complaining now. I don't know, how long we will continue doing this mischief to us. It could be a good, interesting and entertaining place with wonderful designed landscapes and cities. and - yes! - some interesting people/characters... But returning to earth every night in anger and disappointment isn't much fun...

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Nothing new =^.^=

Found the test on Q's blog and just had to do it for my Kenshi.

Your Relationship is Strong

You've built the foundation of a great relationship, and it would take a lot to shake it.

Through good communication and respect, you have a true love that can last a lifetime.

Keep doing what you're doing, and your relationship should stay healthy for a long time.

Everyone has rough patches. It's all about surviving them together and coming out stronger.

Not that I wouldn't have known that before. Love you, my Dragon!!!