Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Happy Rezzday to me

Yes, it's my rezz-day today. And I had planned to write something about One Year SL. But... I don't even have time to write about the events of the last days, so I better let it be. You know enough about the ups and downs of my life, when you read this blog from the beginning.

The list of people I met in SL is long. The list of those who came close and are important to me is also long. I wanted to write a Thank You, but I'm afraid I could forget someone, so I just say: Hey, brothers and sisters, friends... You know who you are, you know I love you. Thank you all for being you and for being a true friend. LOVE YOU!

Oooops! Getting a little sentimental... *me whipes a tear from his eyes* (Jaja, tiger built too close to water these days)

*taking a deep breath* Soooooo..... the last days? Hm, one week after the "coming out" of Q alias Gabriels Asbrink is over. And surprise, surprise! It wasn't such a bad week. After the realization, that the last months - the good things as well as the bad things - were one big lie anyways, I had the strength to release. I'm not sad anymore, just still a little paranoid and suspicious when I meet new people.

I left Tiger's Isle. Took only some stuff with me, left the rest there. May they do with it whatever they want. But my inventory is a bigger mess then ever now. I guess I will have to take a whole day "off" to clean it and sort it out.

On sunday there was JC's monthly BDay/RezzDay-party. And I was one of the co-hosts. A lot of friends tp'd in - like Spanki & Dari, Leigh, Waltentine, Douggie (!!!), Alexi, Kenneth, Vitos, Equinox etc. etc. - Dafydd was co-host too (must have been in heat! Oh my, was he shmexie and horny!)... However, it was good, dancing together. And Daffy was on the phone with JoJo and we all shouted "Jojo" and "brother" and "love you"... so funny. Missed my brother Jojo... - Anyways, I'm sure you can read more about the party on JC's blog soon. --- On the pic you can see us all together doing the "package check". That was so funny! *giggles*

Monday I met my brother Rammy at home. (Yes, it's the same house I had with Q. I love it and hopefully find the time to make it cozier soon) He played Beethoven's Mondschein-Sonate (I just recognize NOW, that this is a bit ironic... you know... moonlight... Moonbeam... I played this for my hubbbie on the 27th Nov and Rickie started to call my hubbie "moonbeam" on the 28th... of course a coincidence *giggle*) and "Unchained Melody" for me... first he played both at the same time, which shows a big musical talent but sounded a bit like a kakophonia, but then he only played the sonata and I just listened and got carried away by the wonderful music.

And yes, you did read right up there: Douggie is back! What a surprise! I don't know, if it is a coincidence, that he's coming back now, but I'm happy to see him again. He changed, grew up. Yeah, they grow up so fast *sigh*...

So, that was my week... apart from one thing: As it seems to be so popular to have alts, I gave myself an alt as christmas-present. Those who have to know, do know who it is. Those who don't have to know... can find out easily, but they better don't try to contact me, they will just be muted. My twin is there for some reasons. One of it is to get a break. Those friends who are on his friendslist know and accept the wish to be alone. He's not there to betray or cheat on anyone and if he meets you, he'd probably tell you who he is. If not, well then he doesn't trust you, I guess *hehe* And he prolly will start his own blog pretty soon...

Well, that's it. So, today is my rezzday. Q had planned a big rezzday-party for tiger weeks ago. I think this will not be happen. It will be just a day like all the other days... and that is good as it is!

And yes: Happy new year to everyone!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Tomorrow - Sunday - Rezzday-Party

Don't miss this months Bday/Rezzparty of the grid-famous shmexie cowboy Jordyn Carnell. Here's his announcement:

The Bday/Rezzday will go on as planned at Club Rapture 2-5 for the european aucience with DJ Kaj, 5-8 for the americans with DJ Wil.

Tiger will be there too and support JC as co-host. Especially as me is a december-child! So, I hope you come to the party, when you're a december-child too. And bring friends with you. Or just come because it's always fun on JC's parties.

See you tomorrow!

My Christmas

Well, Christmas is almost over. Time for an update. A lot of things happened this week...

So, finally the truth came out. Tiger felt very bad the last weeks and months. Always feeling, that something is going on, feeling ignored and neglected by his partner Quagmire Juran. So, since this week the jigsaw puzzle finally solved: Quagmire Juran had activated his old alt Gabriels Asbrink to marry Rickie Zabaleta, playing loving couple right in front of tiger's eyes at Tiger's Eye. No wonder, he wasn't so attentive... it must have been exhausting, to play at least two AV's inworld at the same time.

Somehow I feel relieved, that I finally know the truth about Quagmire Juran aka Gabriels Asbrink (aka kenrog Boozehound aka Rocketmann Destiny aka Verryy Blessed aka vincent22 Vhargon etc.) although... I think noone will EVER find out the truth about that psycho. I have to admit: His ways of manipulating others in feeling bad are brilliant. I did read his ex' Walentine's story and saw exactly the same pattern. I recognized myself in this story. All the suffering and hurting. My compliments, Chris. You're so good at lying and betraying and cheating, that you might believe it yourself.

How much Rickie Zabaleta is a part of the dirty game they played, I don't know. Everything and everyone says, that he must have known that Gabriels = Quagmire and that they played a dirty game together. If so, I hope at least THEY had fun with it. But after all I give Rickie the benefit of doubt and want to believe that he really didn't know till this week.
But after the truth came out and Quag/Gabs admitted his dirty game (not omitting, that of course even THAT was my fault alone), Rickie sticked to him. That must be true love! Babes, I could have lived with that. Believe it or not. If you'd only would have been content enjoying your life together and leave me alone.
But you couldn't stop to excuse your own mean behaviour in trying to cast the blame on me with more lies and twisting the truth. - Well, I spent the last 6 months with apologizing for things I've never done. No, I won't continue with that. YOU know, that YOU are the devils. I know the truth. And the people who really count for me, know the truth also.

So, do us all a favor. Live your twosome life. Leave me and my friends alone. And don't you dare to try to twist anyone of my friends against me. You're wasting your energy, it won't work anyways, and the only thing you might reach with it is, that tiger shows his claws.

Please stay away from leaving any more-evil-game comments to this article. I'll delete them anyways. So it's only a waste of time for you. [Hugs and lickings from true friends and brothers are always welcome]

Okay, and that's the point where chapter is closed for me. Only thing to do is leaving Tiger's Isle. Not without a tear in my eyes, cause yes, I enjoyed the time there very much and I will miss some of the guests, which became friends to me.

~~~ Chapter End ~~~

Sunday, December 21, 2008

well - merry x-mas everyone

Time to... uhm... take a break. Tiger Franzi needs some time for healing and licking wounds...

When Im alone,
I dream on the horizon
And words fail;
Yes, I know there is no light
In a room
Where the sun is not there
If you are not with me.
At the windows
Show everyone my heart
Which you set alight;
Enclose within me
The light you
Encountered on the street.

Time to say goodbye,
To countries I never
Saw and shared with you,
Now, yes, I shall experience them,
Ill go with you
On ships across seas
Which, I know,
No, no, exist no longer;
With you I shall experience them.

When you are far away
I dream on the horizon
And words fail,
And yes, I know
That you are with me;
You, my moon, are here with me,
My sun, you are here with me.
With me, with me, with me,

Time to say goodbye,
To countries I never
Saw and shared with you,
Now, yes, I shall experience them,
Ill go with you
On ships across seas
Which, I know,
No, no, exist no longer;
With you I shall re-experience them.
Ill go with you
On ships across seas
Which, I know,
No, no, exist no longer;
With you I shall re-experience them.
Ill go with you,
I with you.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

My week

Whoa! What a week. Somehow I don't really remember, what I done or not done... It started with a very depressing saturday. Sleeplessness made me oversensitive and paranoid, so I was pretty depressed. But Ken dragged me to the opening of Club Thunder, so I got a little distraction. Where first Mirah, then Syriana were DJing. Whoot! And I got all flirty with Syri. I really should consider my sexual orientation... there are some hot women out there!
Anyways, I ended alone at the brothers hangout, sitting on the rocks at the beach, writing a sad letter to a friend... and just before I closed my eyes, I found this and cheered up, feeling all the love floating over the big ocean 3000 miles or more... *puuurrrrr*

Well, the week was full of ups and downs. A lot of just sitting, waiting, staring, feeling lonely, hurting, licking wounds.... The only things I remember were the opening of Rickie's and Gabriel's "Moonbeam Ranch" on wednesday. Nice work they've done, but I wasn't really in the mood for it, but went there anyways to wish them good luck. Even shmexie lady Rain couldn't cheer me up, so I didn't stay long.

Thursday started the same slow, but suddenly became hectic. I had forgotten, when Rickie's and Gabriels wedding started, got a tp and landed almost naked in the middle of the ceremony. *blush* So I was very busy finding my suit, wondering about the strange look of my feet and taking pics for Rickie & Gabs. And had to rush over to Tiger's Isle for the Egyptian Night after that.

Friday of course was hectic too. Stripping contest on Tiger's Isle. Was soooo good, but I was exhausted afterwards. Six hours I was stressed, but enjoyed it. Read more about it clicking at the pic!

Saturday I came home from RL work and directly tp'd over to Spanki's and Dari's party. But I was tired as hell and not really entertaining and the joyful tiger I used to be. Turned into tiny tiger in hope to get some cuddles, but didn't work. :(

So, it wasn't one of my best weeks. But thanks to friends and especially long, long talks to the sweet cowboy, and thanks to some precious happy moments with my honey bee, I managed to prick up my fluffy ears. Better times will come sooner or later...

Oh, and today I got the surprising news, that my beloved brother and his sweet love Darias got married last night.


I'm so happy for my brother, that he found the love of his life. And Dari is the best brother-in-law I can imagine!

(Last 3 pics borrowed from © Spanki Moulliez)

Monday, December 15, 2008


Tiger has a lot to write, but it will take time. And this weekend he looked more like this:

Friday, December 12, 2008


You Are Valentine's Day

You are a true romantic who places the ultimate importance on love.

You are warm hearted, and you find it easy to care for people.

Love is what drives you - and you have a love to give.

You enjoy making someone's day. You're full of surprises.

What makes you celebrate: Being with the person you love on a special day

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The sentimental one

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: See it as romantic and special

Thursday, December 11, 2008


Ho ho ho! It snowed last night. So, while waiting, I started to decorate for christmas.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Moving on

Somehow the day went over. Lots of talking with my brother Spanki in IMs. Thank you, bro, for listening to all the "drama" and encouraging me! Also thanks to all the others who surprised me with nice words and hugs and "I'll be there for you"s.

Spend some time with packing my stuff in our house. I don't feel comfy leaving it unfinished, so I guess, I'll finish it for... whoever. Moving back to my old parcel, the brother's hangout. Building a house there for my bros and me. That might be fun and fight loneliness.

And well, somehow time went by and "Baywatch"-party started. That was fun as my reflex of entertaining started and I forgot all the shit for a while. Although I'm considering leaving Tiger's Isle and the club. I mostly did it out of love, changed my RL-habits for it... those ultra-long nights till the early morning. Seems pointless now to do that any longer, but I might just be sulky. Too much loving energy invested in it to give it up that easily.

Thanks to my brother Justyn for holding me, while I was falling asleep. After all I'm happy to have so nice brothers and friends, who see me like I really am and show me their love and caring. Thank you!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

to make it official

You and your Second Life Partner have parted ways.
Quagmire Juran has decided to end the partnership.

another sleepless night

Was exploring another Gor-Sim: White Waters. Andrej's boyfriend JeanMarc is first boy there and was kind enough to give me a tour. But this time I didn't wear a silk. Was all master-like instead... and liked it! The language with all the "master" and "Tal" and "safe paths" seem a little strange, but also exciting. However, I heard, it's too much drama there; and I already got that without Gor. Don't need any more. But the Sim is really beautiful...

I looked for a shop, where we could buy some decoration for xmas. Found one... with a nice skiing-possibility. Of course I had to try it. Was nice, but not too much fun.

Somehow I became dizzy and sick. So I had to leave my hubbie a message and try a little nap. Dunno, what it is? Maybe a sneaking cold, maybe just too much time inworld, maybe those Zyngo-machines (not good for kitteh-eyes), maybe just frustration and depression manifesting physically? However, tried to take a nap, must have been fallen asleep too, as I had some strange dreams...

So, back inworld hubbie came to hold me.... and to vanish without a word. Waited for another half hour as I thought, he just crashed. As he didn't came back, I stood another half hour just there, not knowing what to do. I have no idea, what happened...

To get some distraction I finally went to Sodom, as DJ Dafydd was playing there. And in a kinda reflex I started to entertain and chat a lot and won the 1.500 L$ contest, which wasn't too hard, as we were only 3 contestants (and tipped the money anyways back to the dancers)... and forgot the problems for a while.

So, let's say: Tiger had seen better days...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Blogfiller again

Your Lust Quotient: 82%

Your lust is totally out of control. You definitely have let your animal instincts take over.

And while your unbridled desire is attractive to some, most people see you as a bit of a freak!

"Freak"??? *me chuckles*


Found on my hubby's page:

You Are an Angel

A truly giving soul, you understand the spirit of Christmas.

Are we dancers?

Right after awakening yesterday I changed into human and headed over to Mendance. Wanted to dance and work a little. Tips weren't good there as I was dancing as tiger, so I thought I might try it in human form. But dance-poles were occupied... by IMHO bad dancers, so I just danced with my brother Spanki, who was host there. Changed back into tiger soon because of the balancing tail.

However, it made me think once again about good and bad dancers, about tipping in common. Spanki already mentioned it somewhere (me too lazy to search for it), that Europeans might tip less then Americans. I think it's true.

But I have to admit: Bad dancers make me angry. Why? Because they are bad for the reputation. I guess a lot of guests think: "Why should I tip the dancer for just using a dance-pole?" - And yes, in this case, they are right!
It also makes me angry, when there's a good and a bad dancer on the stage and the bad dancer gets the same tips as the good dancer. That's unfair! A few weeks ago I was at a club, tipped my brother Spanki, who's one of the best dancers ever, and another good dancer, but didn't tip the 3d one, who didn't say a word the whole time, didn't even greet me as I entered the club. And suddenly he started to scream "Am I not sexy enough? Why don't I get tipped?" etc. So bad! But *sigh* I couldn't help and tipped him a small mercy-tip. --- Or yesterday... another mercy-tip to one of the dancers, although he didn't say a word. 10 minutes later (!) I got a thank-you in IM and the explanation, that he was doing RL-woodwork besides. Hello?!? He should work on the "wood" of the guests, not park his AV on a pole and hope to get money for it. Bad, bad dancer!!! I fought the urge to tell him: "Give me my money back!"

Do you think, it is easy, to be a (good) dancer? It isn't. And it is hard work, believe it or not! As good dancer you have to be able to do multitasking. You have to:

- watch out for and welcome every new guest
- check out profiles
- be funny and entertaining
- follow the open chat and keep it running
- give every (!) guest the feeling to be recognized
- create nice and/or sexy thank-yous
- answer IMs of admirers
- fight the lag when moving around with your cam, to watch every guest
- be prepared that 50% of your communication is over-heard anyways
- try to get more guests into the club
- flirt, flirt, flirt
(and add for tiger: - Jump between SL and the dict-website to find the right words sometimes...)

And all this at the same time. You think, that's easy? Well, try it next time, when you're a guest somewhere...

But you know what? - A good dancer loves it! It's like an adrenaline-kick for two or more hours.

So, next time, when you go to a club, think about it. Do you feel comfy? Do you feel welcomed? Do you feel entertained? Do you feel involved? - If so, then don't be money-pinching! Think about this: When you go to a RL-club, you have to pay a lot more money for entrance and drinks. In SL you get two or more hours entertainment and fun for free. So, what's 100 L$ to stuff in a dancers undies? About 0.36 U$? That's really not much, but much appreciated... if it is a good dancer. Keep your money, if it is a bad one.
And of course: Don't forget to tip the DJ and the club too. To run a club is an expensive business. High tiers, a lot of expenses for all the stuff, money for the contests, the DJs etc. etc. If you feel good, show your appreciation.

Special hello and "thank you for dancing!" to Spanki Moulliez, JoJo Mandel, Leniad Gelbert, Justyn Maurer and Zakari Lewinter, which are some of the best dancers in SL and the nicest bunch of people I know!

hanging around

After I danced with Spanki at Mendance for two hours yesterday, he showed me his new house and the SIM of him and his love. So beautiful.

Spanki made this pic above of me hanging around cat-ish on a ship-wreck. I like that. Need that poseball!

After the tour we hang around at the camp-fire. Brother Rammy joined us and Spanki's love Darias too. Just hanging around, talking a little, staring at the fire and the stars and the snowflakes.... Very chilling. Just missed my hubbie to join us, but he wasn't inworld that time.

I'm so happy for my brother Spanki. Darias seems like a very good guy to me - and I can almost always trust my intuition. Love him already as part of the family and welcomed him to the family last night, as he joined us on the tiger's isle party.

So, at about 2 SLT it was time to leave and decorate the club for "Arabian Nights", which was a pretty nice theme. Everyone looked so HOT in his exotic outfits. My honey bee and me were inspired by the as kitchy as beautiful and sexy art-film "Pink Narcissus" for this theme. Have to get a transparent belly-dancer outfit for next time.
I spent the last hours to edit and upload this video-clip. So, light of my life, this is for you (watch quickly before it's deleted by youtube):

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Opposites attract?

Long talk with the cowboy last night till the early morning hours. Made that personality test, he recommended. Amazing how the result describes tiger.

ESFJs enjoy people. They are warmly interested in others. They use their Sensing and Judging characteristics to gather specific, detailed information about others, and turn this information into supportive judgments. They want to like people, and tend to be skilled at bringing out the best in others. They strive to understand other points of view. The ESFJs' strong desire to be liked, and for everything to be pleasant, makes them highly supportive of others. People like to be around ESFJs, because ESFJs have a gift for making people feel good about themselves.

Dependable ESFJs take their responsibilities seriously. They value security and stability, and have a strong focus on the details of life. They often see before others do what needs to be done, and do whatever it takes to make sure that it gets done. They enjoy these types of tasks and excel at them.

ESFJs are warm and energetic. They need approval from others to feel good about themselves. They are hurt by indifference and don't understand unkindness. They are giving people who find personal satisfaction in the happiness of others. They want to be appreciated for who they are and what they give. They're sensitive to others, and they freely give practical care. They may find it hard to see or accept a difficult truth about someone they care about.

With Extraverted Feeling dominating their personality, ESFJs are focused on reading other people. They have a strong need to be liked and to be in control. They often change their own manner to be more pleasing to whomever they're with.

The ESFJs' value system is defined externally. They usually have well-formed ideas about the way things should be, and are not shy about expressing these opinions. However, they weigh their values and morals against the world around them, rather than against an internal value system. Their strong moral code is defined by the community they live in.

ESFJs who grew up surrounded by a strong value system—one that is ethical and centered around genuine goodness—tend to be kind and generous, with a selfless quality that is genuine and pure.

All ESFJs have a natural tendency to want to control their environment. Their dominant function demands structure and organization, and seeks closure. They're not likely to enjoy things that involve abstract, theoretical concepts or impersonal analysis. They do enjoy creating order, and tend to be good at such tasks. ESFJs should be careful to avoid trying to use these skills to control other people.

ESFJs respect and believe in the laws and rules of authority, and believe that others should as well. They're traditional, and prefer to do things in the established way, rather than venturing into uncharted territory. Their need for security drives them to accept and adhere to the policies of the established system. This tendency may cause them to sometimes blindly accept rules without questioning or understanding them.

ESFJs who developed in a less than ideal way may be prone to insecurity, focusing all their attention on pleasing others. They might also be controlling, or overly sensitive, imagining bad intentions when there were none.

ESFJs are typically quite conscious about gender roles and are most comfortable playing a role that suits their gender. Though sensitive toward others, male ESFJs tend to be quite "masculine," just as female ESFJs tend to be quite "feminine" (however their society defines those terms).

ESFJs at their best are warm, sympathetic, helpful, cooperative, tactful, down-to-earth, practical, thorough, consistent, organized, enthusiastic, and energetic. They enjoy tradition and security, and seek stable lives that are rich in contact with friends and family.

Blogfiller 2

*hehe* My hubbie can sing a song about that, can't yer?

You Are a Siamese Cat

You are a very communicative creature. You're eager to express yourself - and do so often.

You are very dependent and love attention. You will complain if you are not getting enough affection.

Even though you are very loving, you can seem aloof, unpredictable, and stubborn in relationships.

A relationship with you takes a lot of patience.


Found on my brother's blog. Last sentence is so true. My inv is a mess!

You Are an Impulse Shopper

When you go shopping, you have no set strategy. You just browse until something catches your eye.

You like sales, but you mostly like them because they're an excuse to shop.

Of all the types, you are the most likely to be a shopaholic. You can't stop shopping!

You're not the kind of person who makes a list or plans what to buy. So sometimes you end up with too much stuff.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Hm, don't know what else to tell about the weekend.

Friday was cool with the Butt-Pirates party. And it made me so happy, that my brother Spanki could make it to the party and we (Spanki + Quag + me) danced together and enjoyed the time...

But Saturday I spent most time waiting somehow... wasn't such a good day at the end. Better forget it.

Sunday was full of dancing and party. First exploring Gor, then dancing there. Then heading over to JC's monthly rez-party and finally heading to Tiger's Isle for our own Neko in Leather party.

After the party I spend some time on the isle... wanted to go home all the time as I was really, really tired from no sleep at all the night before, but talked to Justyn for a minute, then came DD to talk, then came Kenneth back to talk.... So it became pretty late till I finally fell into my kitteh-basket and snored.

Me in front of our house on the new stairs I've build down to the beach.


Do you know those days, when you really don't know what to do? Somehow you feel lonely, but although some of your friends are online, you're not in the mood to meet or talk to anybody? And you would have had so many things to do, but you don't find the energy? - Well, the last two days were full of these moments. So it was a nice change, that there was kinda "open house day" at Red Rock, a gay Gor sim.
So, I put on a nice silk... Gee, I love them! Just too bad, that they are not made for nekos! I had to change into human, which is just a sexy guy, but somehow not really *me*... However, I walked around as observer. The bad thing was: You were supposed to not take part in the open chat / RP as observer; only talk to people in IM. That sounded a little strange to me, as it's really hard to communicate that way.
At my first visit there were some Kajiri kneeling around. Lots of "Greetings, brother" etc. - which is somehow nice and makes one feel welcome, on the other side leaving a strange feeling, as you don't know how to behave as "just observer". I tp'd out of there pretty quick, feeling all sheepish and shy (yesh! me! Tiger! shy!!!).
Later on sunday I tried it again. Strolled around a little, avoiding other people. And I have to say: That city is really nice!
Then my friend Dashiel, who is first Kajirus of the Battel of Red Rock (or was it "... of the desert with a palm"?), came inworld and invited me to a dance in the palace. Most of the guys were OOC and it was really funny and exciting. Got asked several times, why I'm not collared and I always pointed at my "observer"-tag. But I have to admit: The offer of Dashiels master to collar me and become part of the family was somehow tempting. I told him, that I love to be tiger way too much to become a Gor-slave, but he said, there also would be the possibility of a part-time Kajirus. *hehe*

Oh, really... no reason to worry (yet). It's a nice and exciting world there - for a short RP, but too many rules. I told Dashiel, that I prolly would learn all the rules just to be able to break them! *hehe* But in my current mood the offer of being part of a "family" is very tempting. Down on urth things are not that well; apart from problems in partnership I don't see my brothers very often. - One defriended me, one is too RL-busy, one is too SL-busy (and engaging in a new relationship it seems. Best wishes!), one I don't trust anymore and one is ill most of the times. :(

However, I think I will "observe" a little more. And I have to take pictures which I can add here...