Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year and such

 So, finally 2010 is almost over. And I have to say: I won't miss that year much! Some good things happened what I'm thankful for, first of all some new friendships and the opportunity and experience to build Tidra. But some bad stuff happened - RL and SL, so I'm not sad, this year is over. Dunno if 2011 will get better though, but atm I'm fine.

So, this week was a busy week after I got my computer back. Building a new home on Earth, which is becoming quite nice. Here are some pice of River and me hanging around at the pool at our new home:

The house itself still needs to be furnished. Well, it was furnished already, but it needs the "personal touch". But I don't want to rush. My inventory is still a mess and I'm sure, when I sort it, I will find a lot which I would like to place in the house. So one step after the other...

The same with our new place in Hrimgar. I'm the new harbormasterin the northern Thorvaldslander village and looking forward to a lot of RP. Changed my looks a bit for IC:

 And yesterday was my 3d rezzday. Oh my! 3 years SL, that's like 90 years RL or so. I wanted to go dancing with my lil sunshine River, but of course as usual: When you don't need it, you get 1000s of party-invitations, but if you WANT to go dancing, everything's closed! So we finally ended in a private nekkie pool-party, inviting Conny, Tel, Derren and Rammy over. Oh, and a guy (faun?) called Rian, a friend of Rammy.

 I was very quiet as I wasn't in the best mood. But I won't talk here publicly about the reason for that. However, I think the New Year will start with some changes...

So, I wish everyone out there a Happy New Year! kisses and hugs xoxox

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


It's done!

/me whipes his face, takes a deep breath and turns around

Time to move onward!

Monday, December 27, 2010

oh my!


Big Ha!

That's a "Ha! I'm back!!!!"

Yesh! I gotz meh internetz backz!!!!!!!!!

Oh my! The last two weeks I would like to just scratch outta mah life. Especially the last 5 days!

So, this was it: Getting my new monitor... finally again a 22'' flatscreen as I had it before.... happy after all installing it... then the problems started. I don't know how often in the last days I installed windows anew.... finally on saturday night as I was just about to start cleaning Tidra I crashed. I mean... my computer did. My harddisc. All gone! So, that was my christmas. Yay! And couldn't do anything cause of the holidays.

Today - monday - first thing to do after a shower and a quick coffee: Getting a new computer. Not that I could afford it, so I'll pay the next 24 months on it. But now comes the irony: Bought a new harddisc for the old one too. Now the problem is: The new one is Windows 7. It doesn't recognize my drivers for network etc. Do I hear another "Yay!" here? So - no network card = no internet = no download for updated network card = no network card... --- The irony at all this is: My old computer with the new harddisc works purrfectly. Not only like before - as I guess we all know it: "Oh! Error message? Hm... okay... it works SOMEhow... so... well... better then nothing...." - No, it works exactly like it should do! A christmas miracle!!! (Okay, while I'm writing this, it does the windows-updates in the background, so who knows what happens after a restart?)

So, the next days I will be busy reinstalling all programms here. And then trying to install the programs on the new computer. Haven't dared to install second life viewer yet... so that will be the next. Keep your fingers crossed!!!!

Oh, and as I couldn't log in but the island should have had to be cleaned on sunday, I gave my lil sunshine River my password to clean up the island for me. Now I heard, that the landlady told him to stop, as she seems to want to keep it somehow. I'm confused!? But I will see about that when I managed to log in.

Second Life... here I come! (soon...)

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas!

So, this is my christmas: Yesterday the problems started again with the new release of the Phoenix viewer. I don't know, if the viewer causes the problems or if the problems are there and cause the freezing of the viewer....

However.... I kept on freezing. And I was sooooo happy, because I got some money from the taxes back (yeah, wonders happen!) and bought me a new monitor. Nice! So, after a few crashes, not only my Phoenix frozen but also my screen, harddisc, whatevah! Blue error screens from Windows. etc. I guess the harddisc is kaput.

After a sleepless, desperate night, I finally got a recovery version of windows back on my computer. At least some good news: Could save some files, so they are not gone forever. But can't get back to my old user-account, so all the programs etc... nothing! Glad that I at least found my own blog here!!!!

Anyways, the only program I installed yet in the new account apart from firefox was Phoenix. And still the same problems: Freezing for some minutes, then everything works fine again for another some minutes till I freeze again. Maybe I really should try a different viewer, though - as I said - I don't know, if the computer causes the Phoenix-problems or Phoenix causes the computer problems. But I heard of many people experiencing problems with their computers since the new Phoenix. Coincidence?

So, I was inworld and rented a new parcel and good news (?): The landlady would have a tenant for it already and would need the SIM desperately. So I don't have to have such a bad concious for giving it up. The bad news: It all has to be cleaned until sunday! I wanted to take a peaceful and not hasted farewell of Tidra. Make some more videoclips for the memory, then clean it all up in boxes.... But maybe it's the best that way? I just hope, my computer works long enough to let me clean it up. *sigh*

And tomorrow RL-work. Oh my! Sooooooo..... Merry Christmas to all. I'm not in the right seasons-mood as you can imagine! Glad, when this year is over!

Monday, December 20, 2010

10 Days to count

10 Days - Then Tidra will be gone. And the year 2010 will end also, which I don't care much, cause it wasn't exactly the best in my life - neither SL, nor RL. But anywho... time to move on!

Last week didn't write much. Was busy with the first part of the video and then... avoided to return to Tidra. It just makes me too sad to stay there. Wanted to do more pivtures and video-clips, but always have to fight the tears when I look around too long.

Also was fighting some RL-health issues. Seems to be a Bursitis in my shoulder. Very painful. The pain especially occured at night when trying to sleep. Sometimes couldn't move my arm without crying out in pain. Had to break up my saturday's shift at work and took the sunday off completely. Well, not that I complain much to not have to work, but I would have enjoyed it more without the pain. So I'm waiting now till my doc opens to get an appointment there...

So, time for the good news: Somehow more or less solved the problems with the computer. Still some crashes and lag from time to time, but I think the main problem was the swap file. I reset it to be administrated by the system; since then it's better. And prolly my soundcard causes some problems too, cause when I mute "ambient" and "sounds", then I experience less lag (switching off audio and voice anyways most of the time).
But it seems, it's not only my computer. I heard from many people who got problems with the new Phoenix viewer and experience exactly the same crashes not only from SL but their whole PC-system. I hope the guys from Phoenix fix those bugs soon!

Another good news: We already found a new place to stay in Gor. We're moving North and join the Torvies. Me shivers already. I'm so used to palms and sun and warm water.... I don't like cold much, and I will need a completely new wardrope! But I'm looking forward to become harbor master and am all exited about the new RP-chances and -ideas and of course also in furnishing our new lighthouse which is so lovely! The exitement about the changes distracts me a bit from the sadness of losing Tidra.

And more good news: Been to the sunday's OOC Tabor dance as usual and there was a contest for best holiday costume.. and I made the first price! Won 2.500 L$. Yay! And flirtet a bit with one of the city-slaves, but after the party he was out of sight.

Well, that's it for now. Gotta have to take some more pics and video-clips. And also continue cleaning up and sorting my inventory before I'll take back all the stuff from the SIM... *sighs*


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Memories of Tidra - Part 1

As we are closing soon, I/we started to capture some pics and videos. Didn't want to bore you with a picture-slideshow, so we put some dancers into the pics. :-)

So, here's part 1 of the videos:

(And I hope youtube doesn't delete the sound again. damn restrictions in Germany. Grrrrrr)

Monday, December 13, 2010

big sigh

If I were a pessimist, I would say: It can't get worse! But I'm an optimist, so I say: Yes, it can!

So, things are not going well these days. I don't wanna talk about the details, just two things: First SL/Phoenix keeps my computer crashing. No problems with other programms running, but with Phoenix sooner or later my pc gives me a scary blue screen and crashes... and I need the recovery disc to at least be able to boot it again. That's no good! Especially as I really can't afford a new computer atm. *sigh*

The second is: Tidra will be down to the end of the year. So, if anyone wanted to visit it all the time, then NOW would be the last chance. It was a hard decision. I've worked on the place(s) for about 1 1/2 years. and it cost us about 2.000.000 L$ (tier and all the things I bought). But it seems, nobody but me (and maybe my boy River) is interested in it anyways. - Not even my lil devil who  rented it in first place against my will...

The ups and downs with hope and plans and work followed by just another  disappointment. .. - That's not what I need in SL; got enough of that in RL.  However if I wouldn't have to care about money, I would just keep it as our private place. But as I *do* have to count any penny, it's not worth the frustration. So, I FINALLY GIVE UP!

~*~ That's all what I have to say for now. ~*~

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

hunts ready - yay!


Last night I finished sorting the gifts from the MHOH4 *and* the poseballs from a poses-hunt in june or july. YAY! Some nice stuff more in my inventory. Many more just deleted. I guess I'll soon go through my closet and delete a lot of stuff, as I might have still some old freebies and such which I never ever wear anyways.
There's been some shapes and skins too. Of course, curious kitten I am, I couldn't resist the temptation to try them out before I deleted them. This one actually wasn't soooo bad.... IF you are or wanna be a black stud... but I wondered: What the fuck is that with the lips!?! Looks like waiting for a kiss the whole time. Who wants to walk around with that "kiss me! kiss me!" face???

*heh* on a sidenote: Today I saw a pic of someone on a blog and thought: "Oh! My! God! the flying spaghetti-monster DOES exist!" (Tel will know what I'm talking of and prolly find the pics I mean)

Okay, the rest to tell about my day is rather sad, so I maybe do that tomorrow...


Happy Birthday, my lil sunshine!

So, it was my lil sunshine - River's birthday today. Haven't seen him much, only some hour +, so I just took him up to the gazebo, to slowdance a bit with him:




So, once again:


Monday, December 6, 2010

updates! updates! updates!

The last days over the weekend were full of updates. So I had not much time for anything else. There was finally the update of the Gorean Meter and servers which should have been in mid October already. A lot of work to handle all the RP-goods which are of different worth now. *sighs*

Then there was also to update of Phoenix. It has some nice new features and I think it tp's faster and loads my immense inventory quicker after a cache cleaning.

And finally I updated my AV a bit. I found eyes similar to my RL-eyes: a light green with brown sparkles in it, so they look sometimes green, sometimes yellow. And as I was about to do it, also shaved (same skin, but without face stubbles) and let my hair grow a bit. Not sure, if I like it. It gives me a total different look. Strange how much the hair alone changes your appearance in SL.... Looks a bit melancholic, but it's okay... matching my mood so shortly before xmas.

So, apart from these updates there's not much to tell. Still trying to keep Tidra alive, but getting tired of it. All the time, all the money spent... for what? .. for whom? - As nice and - so they say - beautiful Tidra is, but *I* don't need it. I'd be okay with a small house on a Gorean SIM and maybe another one for private. So, things will get clearer around christmas. It was always the time for changes. *smiles and poofs*


Thursday, December 2, 2010

Was in a bit of dance mood last night, so I took an invitation of my friend and favorite DJ Heloq to have a look at that new club called Cryptonite. Place was crowded! Theme was "yellow"... well actually "yellow taxi", but being a cab-driver besides university and hated it I must have overseen the "taxi". *heh* Anyways, got this really nice raver-outfit, colored my stripes and hair yellow and jumped over for the fun.

I really liked the outfit, especially the gas-mask (with the whiskers peeking out) was a nice detail:

The place was crowded and lots of fun. Well, didn't feel so well with two kid-AVs, which seems a bit creepy to me, especially when they do those SINE-dances made for erotic dancers, but each his own and as long as the club-owners tolerate it... Just stepped several time accidently on them. :-)
Joshua joined a bit later and finally my bro Kyne too... a blu cat between all the yellow! *heh* He looked quite greenish but at least he rezzed at all.

So, after the dancing I met with my lil sunshine River for some RP until he felt asleep in my arms. So sweet. I love to hold him and miss the times, when me and my family was sleeping online. Wanted to sleep also, but then decided to open some more of those MHOH-gifts to get my inventory sorted. It seems, the gifts get better the higher the number. Well except of this shape:
*giggles* I had to take a picture of it for the laugh before I deleted it. Well, since my very first day in SL I made my shapes myself. It's not a big deal, so I don't understand, why some people spend money for a shape. But now THIS one??? Someone really pays for that? The head way too big and out of proportion. And... well... just!

Okay, okay... Maybe I shouldn't slander about those gifts? They are gifts and someone might have put some effort into it... and yes, I love hunts and I'm grateful that people organize them and shops take part of them. But when you searched the shop for hours to find the hidden gift and then you get such an ugly thingens??? And I think the creators don't do it just for humanity, but for getting traffic into their shops and to get people curious for their other stuff to buy. So, if you put your ugliest product into the giftbox with the thought "Oh, THAT thing nobody would buy anyways. It's perfect to get rid of it in the giftbox!", then you think wrong. Because nobody will every return to your shop to BUY something else.
The oposite were some nice eyes I have seen and wanted to buy some in my natural eye-color (which is more a yellowish green then my SL-brown), so I tp'd over to the shop. You see? THAT should be the purpose of a hunt. Unfortunately the shop seemed to have vanished or moved; however I didn't find it anymore. :(

So, there were some nice examples too. Got a quite good shirt-jacket combination from A:S:S. (no pictures here) or this which I really loved:

The camo-shirt from "BT" and the pants from [BedIam]. Liked it much!

Hmmmm, what else happened the last two days? Oh, forgot to mention that I was at a Capture-the-flag-game in Scimitar on tuesday night. Was fun - me with 6 slaveboys. *hehe* A lot of goofing around. I liked it.

Oh, and before that I visited with River a new SIM called Phallikos... a mix between Gor and Roman. Some buildings quite nice inside.

Yesterday afternoon meeting with the Administrator of Tabor to talk about an alliance. Was a nice RP, but I'll write more about it in the Tidra blog when I have time for it...