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Okay, so I had some private time and decided to continue with sorting inventory, especially all those gifts of the Make Him over Hunt. It was in.. uhm... October? .. and just opened about 70 of the 168 gifts. And deleted about 50 of them, because... well, just crap. And lets not talk about the still unopened and unsorted poses-hunt I did in June or so... Anyways, as I tried on this jumper (above) I thought "Oh! My! God! What the ugly fuck is this?!?!?!" - Well, at least I took a picture of the most ugliest pink (!) .. uhm... something... before I deleted it. Already heard the sirens of the fashion-police coming closer....

And my dearest lil sunshine River made a picture of us today. We wanted to do a 3sum pose with Mamba (who finally logged in... out... in... out... in... out....), but he kept on crashing. My lil sunshine thinks the helmet is hot. Well, me likes it and it actually *IS* very Gorean as descibed in the books... but on the pic I think I look a bit like Daffy Duck. However, the pic itself is quite nice, so here:

And here's another pic of him and me. Looks a bit like I'd have dragon-wings... is because we're sitting on a dragon-throne. *heh* But I like it very much:

 

just rambling

Hmmm, in a bit a strange mood... must be winter. Not depressed... more a bit of melancholy... as my third rezzday is coming closer thinking about those past three years... the events of three years SL would at least fill 2 lifetimes RL, I guess.... the loves, the friendships... some lost, some still exist... Well, for the love, I think, when your feelings for someone once occupied a corner of your heart, it will remain there forever... (unless this part of your heart is ripped out, which only happened once)...

*takes a deep breath to write about something else*

Soooooooo.... yesterday I started to build that project I mentioned before. But it was not as much fun as expected. I don't have a clue how it should look like. As soon as I get an idea, the planning will be more fun. However I don't know if it's worth anything as I'm still torn according the future of Tidra. It's just too much work for one alone. Got to be there for every visitor, doing the building, not to mention the immense tier... It would be so much easier to just rent a little house somewhere and live a quiet life with my two remaining boys... Well, around Christmas I will decide what to do. That was always the time for decisions.

Talking of my boys - One is missing since saturday, so I start worrying. Everyone who knows my history can imagine why. I hope he's fine and will return soon.

Been to Tainted Boys yesterday. Yeah, it was monday. Don't wanna miss DJ Heloq's set, even if I'm always late. Was fun as usual, though the spam-gestures are just too much. Don't like that, so I was in IMs most of the time. Trace asked me to do vid's for a fundraiser-partiy of Second Pride today. So I'll be busy (no idea at what time and where it is!?). Also asked me to do a advertising video for SP... and no idea of that either. I feel honored, but I guess there are 100s of people who can do much better videos.

Well, that's all I can think of atm. The night ended with some talk about this and that with my lil sunshine River and finally a nice lap-dance. No pictures of that either. But I guess I'd make a video of dancing kajiri soon again....

another weekend over! Yay!

Okay, didn't write at the weekend as for not 'nuff spare time. And no pics again... Really have to take more pics, but because of lag-reasons am in lowest graphics most of the time, so I'd have to change to higher graphics, risk to crash etc etc...  So, no pics.

Saturday after RL work been to Eddi&Jago's 2d anniversary party. Was fun and the two are such a nice couple and was nice to meet some old friends & acquaintances even if most of them won't remember me (Yeah, 2 years out of the dance-business... that's an eternity in SL!). Too bad I had to leave then to get some hours sleep before work again. I'm all nervous now as Eddi said, he'd come over soon to take some pics on Tidra. Me myself is not so convinced that it's really such a beautiful SIM as they all say. But that's maybe cause I'm too used to it and I see it with the critical creator's eye? Dunno.

Sunday been to Tabor OOC dance and continued dancing with my lil sunshine even as the party was over... just dancing and talking. I liked. Then enjoying a private dance from my lil sunshine home at Tidra... I took a picture of that, but I won't post it here for some reasons *grins naughty*

And after my boy fallen asleep, exhausted from the dance and... *clears his throat*.... well, and I was about to sleep as well, but someone knocked on the gate of the fort... oh my! Maybe I shouldn't have opened it? What some people call "Roleplay"... Didn't know, if I should fall from my chair laughing or better smash my head against the wall. Anyways... I finally could escape, leaving them to noob-sex in the taverne and visited T&D in the castle, asking them to let me drown in their hot tub or at least they shoot me with the arrows. But we giggled a lot anyways.

So, all in all was a good weekend. Meh liked!

eject trip

*heh* was on an eject-trip yesterday and ejected 2.5 AVs from Tidra. - Yes, I know, first question "2 and a half?!".. yeah, the half one left on his own before I ejected him. Strange, that we always get those noobs on Tidra or griefers; haven't seen so many on other SIMs. Or maybe just not recognized? Dunno... One of the griefers was kinda cute though. He duckwalked right over from the docks to the gate and started to picklock it. It's so annoying when people don't read the rules and even more annoying when you have to repair all the broken doors every day.

Ha, I mentioned the big booty bitches dancing the other day and Derren posted a video. I knew he'd do it, but couldn't mention it before because of the surprise for Tel (sooooowwwyyy *giggle*):

Happy Thanksgiving

kk... promised to write every day even if just so short. Eddie asked for pics of my boys... hm, haven't downloaded any nice ones yet, but will come. Promise!

So, haven't done much yesterday. Only tried to figure out those action-sets in X4 cocks.. *heh* And laters sorting some more of the gifts from the MHOH more then a month ago. Oh my! I'm just at #50 now... more then 110 to go. After 2-4 hours sorting I had 91 items less in my inventory (yes, a  lot of crap in those gifts and my inventory is way toooo big to keep just everything cause... "you never know, when you need it!". Ha, didn't need some stuff in 3 years, so I'm easier now with hitting the "delete" button). Okay, I figured, if I would continue in this speed of sorting and deleting I would reach my goal to be back to about 10.000 items in 1.155 hours of sorting. yay!

However... today I got a new idea for Tidra, but won't talk about it yet. Just let you know I'll be busy (again) the next days with it. Well, can't remember a day in the last 3 years when I wasn't busy with building something anyways.

Got "disturbed" in sorting last night by Tel and Derren and laters my bro Rammy, which was all fun with rubber-duck-battles and big-booty-bitches-dancing and group hugs.

And yeah, I always forget that it's Thanksgiving today for you guys over there. So, Happy Thanksgiving! - You know, I don't like it too much, that the american "holidays" like Halloween and St. Valentine's  swapped over to Europe and Germany. I think each country it's own traditional holidays. Unfortunately Thanksgiving in that way (there's the Harvest Festival here, but it isn't celebrated in that way) did NOT yet find it's way into German tradition. Too bad! Because that I would like much... hmm...eating turkey and other yummy food the whole day... nahm! nahm! nahm!

My new boys and other news

I should take more pictures. And I should write more. I planned to write at least a small article every day after I logged off, but then I'm too tired to do so. Now I will try to write a small article before I log in. Maybe that works better?

So after the fort of Tidra was finished (mostly), I thought I'd get some time to deal with my other stuff. My inventory is still at more then 36.000. I have only opened abut 25 of the 168 gifts from the "Make him over"-hunt. And no time for continue building other stuff. But then I collared two new boys and they are just so lovely! River, who I call "my lil sunshine", and Mamba, my "lil rascal". I missed having devoted slaves, since Wolf and Eagle are gone. And devoted and loving they are. Though they are taking a lot of my time I won't wanna miss a single minute with them.

These days I also started to decorate the valley (= our private skybox) winterly for the season. But I'm not really up to it with my heart. Last years christmas season was wonderful with my family around. This year it just reminds me how much I miss them. But I will move on. I thought it's their internet-connection, but now I know, I'm just out of their mind. So, what remains is the memory of a very good time, a wonderful year though we all had to go through a lot of RL issues, the happiest 12 months in my second life. Now I think it's soon time to let loose, to give up hope and to walk in a new direction...

Para-Roleplay

Met some para-RPers the other day and have to say: No thanks!

So, what's Para-RP? Para means paragraph, that means are Para-RPer writes a full (long) paragraph each time.  Here some examples of the same scene. Imagine the roleplayer XY approaches a group of people standing around. This can look like this:

XY: Tal!

Okay, this isn't the best RP either. *heh* So lets try this:

XY approaches the group of people, some he recognizes, some he doesn't know. A friendly smile crosses his lips as he raises his hand to greet them "Tal, Free!"

I think everything important is said: He comes in peace, he knows some, he's friendly. 'nough said. - Now comes the Para-RPer:

XY approaches in graceful paces the group of citizens. The air around him impregnated by the scent of his heavy and masculine perfume, rising from his soft-tanned skin and his black, elegant garments; kilt and cape softly swaying in the evening-breeze as well as his long, black hair that flows over his shoulders like the dark waves of gleaming Thassa. Soft shimmer of the arising three moons of Gor streaming over his weapons, bathing them in a pool of silver light. As he reach the group of citizens he raises his chin majesticly,  meeting gazes  with a glance from his eyes, dark blue like a  deep pond at midnight in the plains of Ko-Ro-Ba. He recognizes YZ, remembering their adventures in the northern territories where they fought side by side against the kurii, those mighty, scary beasts of Gor. He lifts his right hand, palm inwards, precious rings, three with sereem diamonds - red, sparkling, white flecked - and two with opals - one a common sort, milky in color, and the other an unusual flame opal, reddish and blue. A smile crosses his curved lips, red and full like a sweet lharma-fruit, before he exposes his plain, white teeth to greet with a delicate southern accent: "Tal, Free!"

Well, he greets them if they would still be there. Maybe they are gone already. - I admit, that some are really nice and poeticly written. Others you just wonder "Uhm... what did he just say?!?". However it takes every flow out of an interactive roleplay. Not only that it takes them too long to write their novels, but also they don't REact to others anyways. They are too busy and full of themselves to write already their next long paragraph , they won't waste their time dealing with the actions and words of others. I say No, Thanks! to para-RP.

(And before one of my potential readers might feel offended: I didn't mean YOU. You just forget to hit the "enter"-button from time to time *heh*)

Henryk Gorecki R.I.P.

Was chatting on friday with a RL-friend who loves classical music and refuses to acknowledge any composer who was born after 1850 or so. Which in my eyes is quite ignorant. However he was very fond of a piece of opera he saw in the movie "Hannibal" and was very surprised as I told him *nah nah na nah na!* that it is from Patrick Cassidy, one of those modern composers. I mentioned some others he might like if he'd only KNEW them... like Philip Glass, Nicholas Lens, Henryk Gorecki... Well, and while I sent him some links I recognized, that Henryk Gorecki had died exactly that day we were chatting. :-(

So here's an excerpt of his most famous work: Symphony No. 3. Don't watch it, when you're in a too depressive mood. I got the CD some years ago and it more then once made me cry. However, it's beautiful:

Hello again!

Wow! I just realized, that I didn't write for almost 2 months now. But noone can say, I didn't warn yer in the post before. =^.^= Well, my inventory is still up to something about 37.000 though I was sorting a lot of textures already. But then started the rebuild of the fort of Tidra...

That wasn't planned like this. It started as an idea... like "hmm.... adding a bigger bath... oh, when about that, why not add a taverne?... and of course the infirmary should get an extra building too...." - So, what should have been just a little "addition to the house" became a little village. It's (almost) finished now, though a building never really is finished as you will always find a texture here to adjust and an overlap there to fix.... They say it's quite nice, but I don't know. Now as it's (almost) finished, I don't like it anymore. *heh* Maybe because my heart isn't in it anymore? Maybe it's just the autumn-depression that caught many people?

However, I got news from my family. They are all well and promised in two short visits (in 6 months!), that they will be back. And then were gone again. Well, I guess, that's  how (second) life goes?  For people who are really "involved" in it, spending most of their spare time in this world, it becomes it's own "reality". Yes, I do believe, that their feelings WERE true as long as they been here. But then for some RL-issues they had to stay away. And when you're away for a while, it becomes ir-real... just a pixel-world.... not really important anymore. And so the people in that world are not really important anymore either. I even missed Mick's birthday & his rezzday and I guess I will also miss Kenshi's rezzday and brirthday. So, that's it.  Of course I'm sad and disappointed... all the promises and vows... but I'm not angry. Strange thing, that all the people around, all friends are much more angry at them then I am. Been gone through too much shit in my life, so I learned to accept the things I cannot change. Noone is to blame. Life goes on, right? Just glad, that they are all well and wishing them the very best in their RL.

About Tidra.... hm, I don't know. I had some hope as new people joined besides Teleny: Sey as Master of Baths and Head-Slaver, and the two boys from Earth River and Derren. I collared River in the name of Tidra, but he's becoming more and more my private slave. It's good to have a devoted boy again. - But this hope didn't last too long and still I'm considering to close it all soon. The drama, the work, the disappointments... it's not worth paying the really huge tier week by week. I'm tired of waiting and hoping and getting disappointed... to fight so much just for a little bit of fun and happiness. Maybe it's time to go the easy way: Safe a lot of money, renting just a little house for me and my boy, having more time for building stuff and sorting inventory instead of wasting it for administration and giving tours to people who neverever show up again anyways.... *shrugs*

Well, maybe it's just this time of the year? Better stop this entry here. Don't have much to say anymore anyways...